You said: “ my response comes not out of feeling unable to help the black nation, but out of the resistance of the two sides to work together...the whites to help and the blacks to allow help. “

The choice is simple. You as a white person need to fight for blacks in your own community. Deal with your own community! If you are uncomfortable doing that, then there is something wrong with you, and you are not of help for black people or any oppressed people.

You said: “As a being obviously incapable of understanding my own meditation, it's nice to have someone to interpret it for me....I just never knew I felt so much hate for the black race. here I was, thinking I loved all men and women.”

Well you are a naïve soul.

You said: “Let me now bury my head in shame and despair, because that's what I should do? right? “

Seriously...I don’t care...

B.K